Frustrated!

At the best of times, i know that my life has a definite purpose and that each day i am closer to achieving it.Then there are the worst of times where all of that seems like fancy day dreaming and that for the most part, my life is nothing short of mundane and ordinary.That for all my hopes, dreams and aspirations, my life wont amount to anything more than just mundane and ordinary in the end. Currently it seems like my purpose in life is to wake up in the morning, wash and dress myself, then my son, feed my son, entertain my son, clean the house, do the laundry, feed my son again, entertain my son again, clean the house again, sort out the meals, wilt in this heat, continue entertaining my son ( who as you might have guessed is on holiday) feed my son, wash my son, put my son to bed, engage in a light banter with my husband, then piddle away the couple of hours before bed, before i start this again the next day.Sigh! what an existence!I don't necessarily call this living, do you? I  mean don't get me wrong, my son is one of the greatest gifts in my life and i will never trade being a mum for anything in the world; but, there has to be more to my life and my days than this; don't you agree? There has to be more challenges to my intellect and my abilities than reading The Shark Encyclopedia and drawing Moray Eels! I know there is, but alas, it seems so far away that it's as if it doesn't even exist.

How do women, who are mothers and wives, end up still having there own sense of identity and purpose secured? How do these women not drown in the mundanity of daily chores and the demanding responsibilities of Everyday Life? Where do they escape to protect their sanity and keep a level head when it feels like ones very existence is being challenged?above all, how did they mange to get to the place where they are first and foremost their own person, before they are anybody else's wife, mother or home maker? I admire you, who ever you are and where ever you are. I know you're out there. I know you must think this isn't rocket science.That the only thing needed is some perseverance and self discipline.But for the likes of me, even that seems too much of an effort at this moment. Or maybe i'm just currently stuck in self pity and you are my venting board. :) Then again tomorrow is a new day, and the possibilities can be endless! here's to wishful thinking ! :)